GODDAMN THIS IS FREAKING 10 YEARS+ ALREADY.
It started with - to hide my own identity & HOLY SHEET I ALMOST COULDN'T RECOGNIZE MYSELF!
I came back here with some digging because blogger now belongs to Google & I signed up here (10 years + ago) with a hotmail account. Was gonna delete or hide my another blog, so yeah, I went on a little ride with Google security before finally retrieving back my blogger account only to realize THIS blog wasn't the one I was looking for. But still wow, okay, I guess Imma go dig some more for that particular one.
So, an "online diary" huh, but without showing the true identity. Pretty teen stuff I must say. This blog, I won't delete or hide. Since the last post, it's been like 10.5 years & I'm pretty sure things have been going wild but at the same time, kinda calm too.
It's 2021 now, fast forward a little from 2011, the covid pandemic 2020 is still 1 of the most life-changing unfortunate event in this 10 years, at least for me. The whole 2020 year is the year I hate but still kinda glad that it happened. Gonna take this chance to remind myself after another 10 years.
The lockdown in our country started @ 18-3-2020, 6 days before that I decided to quit smoking. (Probably the best decision in my 10 years life) But not realizing I need to face my withdrawal & cravings during the lockdown. I felt terrible. Long story short, I had a hard time quitting though in the end I succeeded. What's motivating me now for not going back smoking is my extraordinary journey of quitting. I'm confident to stay this way for the rest of my life.
There was so much bright light after not depending on nicotine anymore but ironically I caught this little sinus problem that started with me having "sleep apnea" symptoms, not too long I quitted smoking. Nose jams & blocks happened but didn't bother me much. Only my breathing kinda interrupted or stopped when I was sleeping at night, or anytime. And also feeling very anxious about it, I started feeling out of breath for no reason, leaving me more afraid & panicked. I thought I got Covid, potentially putting me & my family in life-threatening conditions. The more I think about it the more difficult for me to breath. Eventually I went to a covid test & the result came back I'm negetive. The anxiety feeling went off IMMEDIATELY. Crazy that I always thought I could catch any kind of disease but the last thing I would get was mental health. After this short 10-15 days of experiencing anxiety & panic attacks, I might've under estimated mental health & despite having a hectic couple of weeks, I thought I only tasted the mild level of mental health problem.
Until today, I still haven't get rid of my "sleep apnea" problem. I do snore when I sleep, but I also still have my sinus problem, so I'm really not sure what the hell is happening to me. I'm not going to hospital to see my doctor because the daily Covid case is getting crazier everyday so far. It's not that urgent though, I'm not risking of getting infected with Covid. So this is the only problem really bothering me now, oh & I haven't been having a good night sleep since ermm April 2020? Hopefully this will be over soon.
Some highlights & lowlights in this 10+ years.
Enjoy every time when I travel oversea with either my family or my friends. The last trip was CNY 2020 before the pandemic really hit hard.
My family & I work hard & bought another home @ 2014, then we moved @ 2016.
2016, January we moved in our current home. August, Pokemon GO release & I was crazy about it. The grind started then & it really didn't stop until this pandemic. Made a lot of new friends, majority in a more elderly age group compared to my age. Made myself a little fame too in my small but kinda big group of local players. Life had been all Pogo for me, rarely spent time with my parents & also my old friends at those years.
Went to Sentosa, Singapore for the Safari Zone Pogo event with my closets friends. This is highlighted because it was the first Pogo related event we travelled out of our country.
My mom unfortunately admitted to hospital during the later months of 2019 due to hypertension. Some mixed feelings for me of course, worried & honestly, lost but still acting calm. She came out basically fine, and since then taking more precautions about health.
One of my closest friends admitted to hospital not long after my mom's discharge. Same reason, hypertension. But very unlucky for him, he got stroke & when he woke up, he couldn't move & talk like a normal person. This stabbed our hearts, sad to hear that & a little bit of his untold "origin stories". Long story short, he passed away about a month later.
2020, after my most recent oversea trip, like I mentioned, 18/3/2020 the lockdown started. It didn't really lift up until now, though we could like go out & dine-in in daily basis only with strict SOPs during the late months of 2020.
I lost about 15kgs (in 1 run) during the later months of 2020. Felt great even though gained back about 5kgs since CNY 2021 till present day.
During April 2021, one of my best Pogo friends passed away due to liver cancer. He was the same age as my mom. He was a good & fun person, the world will definitely miss him. Months later, our pandemic here spiked up dramatically. His brother infected with Covid and passed away too. Devastated, surprised, scared & sad. Just that I thought 2019-20 could get the worst year award, 2021 came and took it personally.
I was fully vaccinated @ 13/6/2021 with AstraZeneca.
So far to this day, a couple more things I wish to have it in another way:
First is my "sleep apnea" problem.
Maintain a healthy lifestyle, with very good consistency.
& since I met my big 30, health, wealth & family are the most important things to me. Slowly learn and improve my life into a good direction.
That's all for today, hopefully the next post won't be 10 years later. BYE!
